The MakeMeThinner Support Forum

[hollyhouse]

It started out good
I had my oatmeal and coffee
then i had pudding
50 oz water
another oatmeal
bouillion
then a shake
16 oz water
I started to have an anxiety attack so i screwed up and ate a piece of bread i thought it would calm me down. it did for the moment.
then i ate a handful of nuts and a piece of cheese
oh well
another 16 oz of water
then i went to the gym and worked out on the stairmaster for 60 minutes
so i really beat myself up today!
came home had a handful of nuts and 4 pieces of dried apricots.
boy was today a failure!!
I have to Try again tomorrow!! im not quitting!!!
If i keep fighting through this and coming here admiting my failures maybe ill succeed! or i should say i WILL win this battle!!

[Joelie]

You WILL win, Holly! Keep at it!

[techkitten]

You're doing great! Those slip-ups (while they're not on eh MF program) are still healthy choices, so when you meet your goal weight and begin maintenance, you know you are still going to make those healthy choices.
And as for an occasional slip or two, it is not optimal performance, but everyone deserves a slip now and thwn (but remember, we did not get to the way we look now by only splurging now and then.)

[Marseilles]

Hi Hollie...

I hope you take this post in the spirit it is intended and do not take offense, but I have been reading your posts all along and feel the need to speak up. It seems like others responding you are doing a lot of hand-holding and molly-coddling and I really do not think it is in your best interest for that to continue. I would like to take the opportunity to speak honestly to you and point out a few things.

First of all, medifast is a finely tuned program, designed to help people succeed based on its nutritional value, vast research, the experience of professionals testing and designing the supplements and its simplicity of use. The way you are working this program leaves you doomed to one result: failure. The program, as it is designed, is written in STONE. It does NOT leave room for variations and experimentation aside from what is clearly laid out in the guidelines and support provided. I understand completely that each and every day on medifast is a challenge and each and every day we all face decisions and temptation. I would advise you to take a long hard look at your methods and motivation. You are cheating no one but yourself each time you eat that piece of bread, the dried nuts, the snowballs and anything else ASIDE from medifast or the allowable lean and green that you choose to put in your mouth. Hollie, I do not doubt your intent or the validity of you needing to lose a few pounds or a hundred. We are all here for our own reasons and with our own goals but I would seriously advise that perhaps you speak to a professional about your food struggles. I know from your previous posts that you have battled both ends of the weight game and you know as well as I do that there is something deeper going on here than a few extra pounds.

Please Hollie, if you choose to continue on medifast, be determined to do it correctly. Do it with the intent to succeed and do not continue to find a million reasons to stray. If you do not, you may still lose the weight you desire but I guarantee 100% that you WILL gain it all back and possibly more if for no other reason than by doing what you are doing RIGHT NOW, you are further damaging your metabolism at the very least and possibly worse than that.

I wish you great success Hollie, and I hope you take this to heart. Call it a tough love approach but you are seriously hurting yourself right now and noone here desires to see that.

All the very best,
-M.

[hollyhouse]

Well,
Thanks for your response. I am totally AWARE that i have some HUGE mental issues. I am having a battle with on a daily basis. Posting my failures helps me to be stronger and keep trying. This isn't an easy journey for me and im sure for alot of other people on this forum.
since i am semi anonymous here. I feel it to easy to share things that i normally wouldn't. and maybe someone else who is having the same struggles will relate to what i am going through and not feel so alone.

This diet isn't cut and dry if it was easy everyone would be doing it.
hey maybe for some people it is. just not for me.

Am i suppose to be quiet and only report when im doing well because some people on this forum are sick of my posts.

Well all i can say is don't read my posts then.
What more can i say.
Believe me i feel horrible every time i screw up.
And i know and understand the science behind this diet.
knowing and doing are 2 different things.
If i had nothing else going on in my life maybe this would be easier to follow. BUT i have alot of other things happening. excuses excuses i am well aware that i do that.

I am a work in progress!

[Marseilles]

Hollie, there was not a single ounce of malice or ill intent in my post to you, I posted because I am VERY concerned. I understand your struggles, completely. Im not calling you a head case or anything else. I wish you could understand that. My ONLY desire is to see you succeed and gain a healthier outlook about yourself and work through some of those huge mental issues you made mention of. It greatly concerns me to see you struggle with the program the way you do when the end result of your current method is further damaging to yourself.

At the very least, if you do not get at least three completely compliant days on medifast and possibly 4 or 5 at this point, your body will not be able to get into the mild state of ketosis required to safely take off the pounds. What it WILL do, however, is plunk your metabolism into what I call 'concentration camp syndrome'. It will burn as little as is humanly required to sustain itself until such time as you start to feed it again. At that point it will store every possible calorie it can as fat for such time as it begins to be starved of vital nutrients again. It is a lose-lose situation.

Hollie, we ALL have huge mental issues with foodie struggles and we are ALL in this together. It is a support system and perhaps you cannot see it, but my post was written for support. Nothing else. I would LOVE to see you succeed and be healthy while doing so. I just personally feel it is a dishonor to you and your struggles to sugarcoat what could seriously hurt you.

You are powerless to change what you do not acknowledge. The truth sometimes hurts but I state it in hopes that it gives you food for thought. Nothing more, nothing less.

Again, you have my very best wishes for your success.

-M.

[DogMa]

I'm with Marseilles. No one wants to hurt you or see you fail. But it seems pretty clear that what you're doing right now (slipping up and then posting about it) isn't helping. You've been struggling with the program for weeks now. If what you're doing isn't working, it's time to try something else.

I don't mean try another program. I think Marseilles is right that you need more help than what you can get from a relatively anonymous support forum, and I hope you take her suggestion that you speak to a professional. I know that can be difficult, but if you continue what you're doing, you're putting your health - and metabolism - at risk. Right now, you don't have that much to lose (we've talked before about your goal weight and whether it's appropriate for your height). Do you REALLY want to wind up where many of us are, much older with much more weight to lose and damaged metabolisms that mean we struggle for every ounce even when we're completely compliant?

Please talk to someone before you do any more damage to yourself, and let us know what happens. Believe it or not, we really do care about you and want you to succeed.

[hollyhouse]

ok so im not going to post anymore

i don't need this aggravation.

[Marseilles]

Well Hollie,

Although it is something of a disappointment to see your latest post and reaction I certainly respect your choice. Sadly, it does not come as too much of a shock that you have decided to stop posting. Perhaps one day you will realize that the people here had your best intentions in mind and at heart when trying to help you with this and that the refusal to enable you to continue down a scary and unhealthy path was the ONLY response that truly did you any justice. Anything else would have been a disservice to you.

I hope it all works out for you.
Sincerely;
-M.

[JustLynda]

Don't know if you're still out there, Holly. But just in case...

I, too, have been concerned about you based on the information you have given in your previous posts. I just didn't have enough guts to step up and say something. I think you are doing yourself, and Marsailles, a disservice with your actions. If you re-read her posts, you will see that what she said makes sense and was clearly said out of concern...not malice.

I sincerely hope that you find what you are looking for.

-Lynda

[hollyhouse]

Im not going to re-read my posts only to get upset with myself.
I was just being toooo open and honest`I was posting no matter what.
And i didn't edit while i was writing i just wrote whatever was going on for that moment. I was here for support or to vent.

But i see i should find a blog group to do that.

Obviously i shared too much already with you all.

You may think your being helpful. but to me it would have been more helpful if you didn't respond to my posts.

whatever i attempt to do and whatever you may think i wll succeed eventually maybe this month isn't the right month. who knows. but i wll win maybe not with medifast but i will win
and i truly wish you all the best and im sure you meant well.

I will see what tomorrow brings
thats all

[ascicles]

What I've gathered from you is that you want everyone to support you when you constantly stray from the restrictions on the diet. Unfortunately, that isn't going to happen. I am sure that everyone is more than happy to support you if you occasionally make a mistake, but you are looking for validation for the errors you've made...and it would be a disservice to you to provide that.

It's one thing to make a mistake and look for support. It's another to break every guideline of the diet and THEN whine about it not being healthy and not working for you. OF COURSE it's not working for you, because you aren't following the plan. You're hungry because you're never getting into a state of ketosis. That's your fault, and as soon as you learn to accept that and stop getting angry at people for trying to help you, the better.

[dede4wd]

I'm new to the forums, but have been catching up and following a ton of threads...

Holly, I wish you gigantic success and hope you find what works for you. I was on MF a year ago and just decided that it wasn't worth spending the money with my little cheats and slip ups daily because of either stress eating or peer pressure. I left the program and came back just 15 days ago. I wasn't in the right place in my life or way of thinking to do the diet in the regimental way required to succeed on it. I am now. Do what you think is best for you.

I am by no means saying get off MF, I am just saying if you want to try something else you can always come back to MF, I did! I was spending a lot of money without my heart in it. I realized the "DeDe plan" wasn't working...the "DeDe plan" never works! I'm going to give MF 100% compliance and 100% of my attention and see if it kicks the tail of the DeDe plan!

Marseilles, I just wanted to thank you for your words. Truthful yet not accusatory. Although Holly took them as she did, you helped ME grab this bag of peanuts they left in the hotel room, march it down to the elevators and throw it in the trash!

I'm having trouble putting into words what I need to say to a MF e-mail buddy that I have. YOU HELPED! I won't completely plaguerize you, but it helped get my thoughts together!

I think she (my MF email buddy) wants the "hugs" buddy and I'm kind of the heiney kicker (although usually just at myself!). I've been trying to be supportive and such, but I have this "don't complain to me about not losing weight if you're drinking wine every night and eating bites of french bread and carrots" attitude that I try not to pass along online! Anyway, sorry to hijack this thread, that wasn't my intention!
DeDe

P.S. Can you believe they left honey roasted peanuts on my pillow! I mean honey roasted peanuts! My hotel room looks like a shrine to Medifast, maybe they thought the peanuts were better than the dinner mint! No matter, it's in the trash now!

[Marseilles]

DeDe, thank you. I am so glad my words helped, even if they didnt help Holly much. Please, feel free to use them word for word, if you'd like. This program CAN be successful for everyone. You totally have my permission to claim them as your own.

*hugs*
-M.

[lauradr]

Dede, When the hotel leaves the goodies in my room I wet them right awy and then I am not tempted to eat them. I can't beleave they thank they are being nice leaving all the junk food in the rooms . You did sooo good