The MakeMeThinner Support Forum

[FertileMyrtle]

For my first post in my journal, I must put out a disclaimer--these thoughts may be random and at times way too sappy, but they will be a reminder to me of how I felt before I got skinny. (Foreshadowing there, I hope.)
Remember how uncomfortable you feel-as though your body is exhausted lugging around the extra weight equivalent to your three year old. Remember not recognizing yourself in the mirror. Remember that you have survived a twin pregnancy and things are different now. Think about being strong and light again-sailing and swooping elegantly through rooms.
This is your time, Stranger. You have been entrenched in the throws of over-time motherhood, and it's time to reclaim your bod.
When chocolate stares you in the face, remember it will be there always, but it's not worth another three days getting into ketosis. Such a short investment in dedication will reap tremendous rewards. You can do this. You have to.

[dede4wd]

Random's good (have you READ Wildtrk's journal?) and sappy is good too. Journals are a GREAT way to remember where you've been and see where you're going! I just wanted to jump in and say hi and welcome!

DeDe

[FertileMyrtle]

Another successful day of MF-measured by eating entirely on plan, b/c we don't have a scale in our house (yet)--maybe I'll ask for one for C-mas! This might be the first year in a long time that I would consider a scale a gift!
Today I had shakes, a bar, chicken noodle soup (quite tasty with a stalk of celery chopped in it for some crunch) and for my L&G I had a turkey burger with grilled onions, peppers and mushrooms.
Although I haven't worked out in a few days, b/c Curves was closed this Holiday wknd, boy was I busy today! Great energy-I cleaned my laundry room. I mean, I actually pulled the machines from the wall and wiped all the lint off them, swept, mopped, wiped down all the cabinets and organized/tossed all the junk we had stored. And then!! I began painting the walls in there! After years of remodeling/decorating our house, there was paint splattered all over the walls b/c of a utility sink that we recently took out.
I also finished my Holiday Decor, dusted, steam cleaned the carpet, cleaned the kitchen--all this while the twins treated themselves to the dog's food, played in his crate, and sat in the steam cleaner.
I did not wake up with any intention to start a project, but I had a burst of energy!Well, off to drink the last of my water-and pee:) Check in tomorrow!

[dede4wd]

Daing,
I'm tired just from reading this! Sounds like you were on a mission! Mumbles about not getting enough done today (then goes back to the Tivo).

Sounds like your energy level is GREAT!

DeDe

[Unca_Tim]

yikes...you wore me out too....

Are you getting in all 5 of your MR's?

[FertileMyrtle]

Day three done easily, even avoided the snack table at church and munched on a mF bar. Yup to Unca--I am getting all 5 meals in plus my L/G. Because by the time i get all three kids up and at'em, its 9am--i find myself eating every two hours (9am-9pm) which is great. I cant believe how simple this is. Mind u I am predipositioned to eat simply and have no crazy expectations towards protein enriched foods, and this works into my schedule so seamlessly. I have no time to even think about thinking about cheating!! I have no desire for anything else whatsoever, i am so consumed with emptying that water pitcher, and getting my meals in on time. Tomorrow I am going to Curves and wont be able to resist weighing myself. Maybe I'll wait till Tuesday, after 4 full days (ketosis after 3 right?) dont wanna jump the gun, but hers an observation already....

Ya know when you have a good solid chunk o fat in that particular area? And its dense and happily making you uncomfy? And then when u lose weight, it begins to melt, and it starts folding in all sortsa ways b/c its being broken down? Its squishier b/c it's less solid? Thats happening in my particular area.

Heres to all your "areas"!!! Melt!!

[FertileMyrtle]

Ok folks-I'm down for the count-down in pounds that is! I did weigh myself at Curves and I lost 6 lbs! In four days! I don't care where it came from, because it's gone now!

So it's 7:30 and we just ate meatloaf-lean GB made with one egg and a sprinkle of asiago to hold it together. I had a piece about the size of "a deck of cards" with sauteed yellow squash slices and lettuce with a touch of low carb ranch dressing. Good meal.

The hubs is going to rent "U, Me and Dupree" and we are gonna do his favorite thing--watch movies and munch. He gets pop corn and I get my last MF, bananna pudding. He deserves it, though--he spent his day off cleanining the shed, patching walls, repainting white trim all over the house. It's amazing what a little white paint does.

I hope everyone is having a fab week, and i'm gonna go cruise the boards...on to day 5!

[dede4wd]

6lbs! Woo hoo!

DeDe

[FertileMyrtle]

So I thought that know that I am in the swing of things, MF wise, I would share some of "my story." It starts at age 5, believe it or not! I would visit my Grandma in TX every summer, and one particular summer, my Grams indulged my every whim. All I really remember is Puddin' Pops and ice cream. Apparently, I gained 15 lbs in 3 weeks. This is coming from my mother, who was mortified, took me to the doctor, chewed out my Grams, and instilled in me that my fat cells were ruined forever. Because they got stretched.

Needless to say, the next summer it was yogurt and granola. I don't remember feeling chubby until I was 8 or so, maybe 9. My mom had recently divorced, and I just remember that my belly was chunky. Add in my sister's boy friend who called me Pork Chop...I've always been tall, so I don't imagine I really looked fat. We lived in North Country, where all winter everyone gossips and eats. My mother had major munch tendencies-every night in front of the TV with chips, ice cream, buttery pop corn, bugles, candy. She had gained (and lost by the divorce diet) a good 60 lbs with my brother, so she definitely was coming out of some weight issues. Transfer to daughter!!!
Well, my sis and mom were "the pretty ones" in my eyes, and I was just a goofy 9 yr old. In fact, my mom loved to dwell on the fact that I had "Demmert cheekbones." (my fathers fam name) So cheekbone complex, as well. My mom would let my brother eat candy and then refuse to give it to me, as she reminded me I was chubby. Personally, I think that was the right thing to do food wise, but her attitude was terrible. Like I was being punished for eating the food she bought. And I was 10 years old by now...sleep overs, twinkies, etc.
I imagine I struggled with 15 lbs or so until I was 13, and due to some drama in my mother's life, i lost 15 lbs in 3 weeks due to stress.
I was an active teen, walked all over Florida (we moved), went to the beach in thong bikinis, joined the swim team, went clubbing. I was a total hottie. Tall, blonde, legs and boobs.
In my early twenties I started my career which had a crazy schedule and deprived me of a social life. I moved in with my husband, and we were homebodies, living in a small town with nothing to do and no one our age. I gained and lost 15 lbs. Shortly thereafter, I got pregnant, but lost the baby. Kept the weight gain. broke up with my man for a moment, and lost it all in a month (stress again.) And finally, after 3 years of feeling like a fatty, I was me again. And immediately I got pregnant again. Gained 25 lbs or so, lost 15, and then got pregnant with twins. Put me over the 200 mark. I think I lost some weight the first few weeks from nursing (and stress) b/c I was almost in my size 12 clothes at 6 weeks postpartum. But once things calmed down, and I had time to eat again, boy did I. I think I gained more after the babies were born than during the pregnancy. By the time I joined Curves last March I was 198, and so uncomfortable. I've had 2 C-sections, and at this point my core needs a lot of work. Now I'm 183, shooting for 155, so I can be me again.
I know I don't nearly have the struggles as some out there, but I can identify with feeling invisisble and average. Having not really felt that as a young woman, having always been able to capture a room or cause car accidents, feeling average is not my cup of tea. Having 40-50 extra pounds completely changes a person, as losing them transforms a person.

[bikipatra]

I really loved your story. I deal with the invisibility issue a lot too. Not the oogling part so much (although it had its rewards) but just feeling like people don't see me and aren't as pleasant to me in stores or on the bus, on the street.

[dede4wd]

I loved your story too. I had to deal A LOT with the issue of invisibility. I went from being wallpaper to getting a lot of attention I wasn't ready for. I will enjoy watching your progress.

DeDe

[bikipatra]

I spent my whole life as a thin 117 person with 32DDD's. Five and a half years ago I weighed 117, then 150(I was so Marilyn then-in my mind), then it got out of control...I am ready for the attention again. I want my husband to be proud of the woman on his arm. I know he is-but I want to feel it. I don't want to overhear him talking to the dog telling her she is too fat, just like her mother.

[FertileMyrtle]

Oh, Biki, I'm so sorry your hubby makes comments like that!! My husband has always been kind and never played on my faults (which there are many) but when we were ready to kill each other at one point after having our twins, I remember he called me a fat name and told me he could see it in my face, in the dirtitest tone of voice ever. It broke my heart that we had reached such an evil point, well, more so that he did, b/c it doesnt take much for me to be evil (the latent yankee in me).
Keep hangin' in there, lady.

So, today I happened to stop in to Curves after I got some groceries, and I weighed myself.

After 12 days, I am 10 lbs less!! And out of the terrible 180's!! Now, of course, my shortsighted goal is to get out of the 170's! Let's see if I can do that in the next 12 days! Perhaps by Christmas (19 days) I will be closer to the 150's!!

I am very excited to be able to report this b/c I was very worried after a few discreprencies-- a fudge cookie or two (blame the PMS), a slice of Italian cheeseless pzza, and (arggg, I hate fessin' up)--I went out with a friend and had 3 mixed drinks (with diet soda, but still.) I'm not a big drinker, and I never get to go out, and I felt so good in my skinny jeans. It was nice to have men do double takes again. I feel like "me " is starting to show through again. I'm not quite there, but it's so in my line of sight now, I can taste it and I wont let go!! My 29th b-day is in Jan, and I have specific 30 yr old goals I want to meet (like having 6 pack abs.) If I can do this, those goals seem so much more attainable.

My hubs is visibly excited for me (um, I mean that in all innocence lol)--he can tell b/c I am wearing jeans again! I've been wearing skirts and sweats for a year! It's amazing what 10 lbs can do! But I cant get too comfy b/c there is still some roll-age and waist puff that needs to melt away. I am so thankful that he let me spend our money on this--considering he never gets anything for himself, and I got the gym membership, the new clothes, etc. I mean, things change after having babies, so I can't feel too bad, but still...he's been gracious in handing over his hard earned bacon.

Anyway, thanks for reading and checking in on me. I really need to make some friends out there on MF, feel free to PM me just to chat more frequently.

[bikipatra]

I bet you looked mighty cute in those jeans! Congrats on those double-takes!

[dede4wd]

I'm just checking in on you. I know you were talking about the brownie here, the bite of this there...

I mean look at you in those jeans, think about how much you liked the double takes and how "you" were coming out again. Think about how much you want goal!

I know it's hard not to drink when you're out, but I do diet cokes with lime in a rocks glass and have just as much fun! It's not forever...

And to be honest, MF is WAY EASIER when you're not nibbling, if you don't start, you don't want to. It's also a slippery slope, after one thing, you may decide you've "blown" the day and continue bad habits the whole rest of the day. Believe me sister, I've done it! I will quote the ever-wise Lauren here...she's my rock star:

it's time we treated ourselves with as much care and love as we have treated those around us. This is the first time in my life that I have put myself first - and that's okay. Because we can never be as good friends, lovers, siblings, parents, children, etc., if we are not complete first. I see how much more energy and spirit I have to put into those around me, because I have "filled up my own tank" before approaching each situation.

Jo and I have said this a million times, and Jo said it again here - there aren't any excuses. The holidays proved no more a threat to me then any other day. New Years? Not an issue. Birthday? No biggie. Thanksgiving (twice!) - no change. Don't you all SEE? It doesn't matter what life has to throw at you - do not deviate from the plan. This can't be a choice, it has to be the only option. I was like a horse with blinders. I didn't even see alternate routes. I didn't consider cheating. I never had a sip of alcohol (and I used to like to party!), I never "tasted" the forbidden fruits, nothing. And just so this doesn't sound like a back-patting holier-than-thou speech, please know that choosing to stay the course makes medifast EASIER!

Let me say a bit more about this: if you never give yourself the "out," the option to cheat to drink to take a day a meal a minute off, if it's not an option, life is SO MUCH EASIER! I almost never had cravings, I never had to plan around a rough patch or try to get myself back on ketosis. I ALWAYS felt good. I think it's interesting when people come on board and say that life got too hectic or too stressful to do MF. I actually think if my life got too stressful - even years from now, I'd CHOOSE MF, because it's easy, no thought required. Laura had her accident and a tough recovery, Jo had a stressful office move and business decisions to be made, and my sister was diagnosed and battled cancer - all while we successfully stuck with medifast. It wasn't a choice. There was no other option for us.

Your body is OBVIOUSLY responding to MF, I KNOW you can close out this month with a great total, we just need to help get you focused! I know you like the results so far and I KNOW you can push onto goal!

That's my pep-talk...getting off my soap box now!

DeDe