The MakeMeThinner Support Forum

[Karli]

All b/c I felt-welp, if I'm gaining weight doing the right thing, then I'm gonna be wrong!!

Oh, I've been there . *Definitely* not helpful and not worth it.

Here's to a great MF'ing day ... LOL.


Karli

[FertileMyrtle]

Well, i think i can officially say I've gained 5 lbs back. Today was another restart day, and I ordered some more MF. That gives me hope. I only have a few days left and I didnt want to use them up before I could get more. So, I'm pleased that I should be able to get back on board.
These past few days have been terrible. The whole day I do well, and then, at night, I just munch!! Cereal with honey and milk, triscuits--gum, hard candy...I'm almost through the evening and I feel hungry!!
I cant do this without Medifast. I cant have any in between times like this, but we just cant afford a big shipment right now. I got a small supply. Should hold me over till we recover from Christmas.

[bikipatra]

I am glad you are getting your shipment. Best wishes.

[FertileMyrtle]

Ok Its time to get honest. I am here to start logging my meals, every morsel. Its the only way I cant rationalize away my nibbles. I have been low on my MF, so I have been subbing with a whey protein powder for my shakes. It has no carbs, 90 cals. I'm only doing this b/c i am in a fix till my delivery arrives. The sub is not filling like MF.
This is Day 2 of my restart, and I am feeling better. I am still nibbling, b/c if I dont I will cheat hard. I am nibbling low carb foods, meat, cheese b/c ketosis is so important to my weight loss. Until my head gets right, I'm doing my best.
But is it my head? For 2-3 nights, I carbed out on Honey Bunches of Oats and Triscuits. Every night, after a compliant day-after 7 pm, I made trip after trip to the kitchen for a refill. This went on for 2 hours, every 15 mins or so. When I think of bingeing, I see twinkie smeared stuffed cheeks and bulging eyes.
My binge was a bit more classy
I am super confused and concerned for myself. I thought this would be as simple as diet and excercise. I never understood why people would let themselves gain back!! But I have gained 5 lbs. Thats a third of my loss!! I see that I rely heavily on food to entertain myself, give me the happy sleepy feeling, to indulge...

Please help me.
I want to gorge until I am sick! I am sick!!
years ago, during my first real job, I got so lost into it that I was so lonely. At night, I would eat "fat free" foods till I was numb. Pretzels with mustard, apples with f/f caramel sauce, pasta.
I feel like I could blindly stuff these pounds right back on my body and I cant imagine having to start over and lose it all over again!!

So here is my day

9am shake
11am bar
1pm oatmeal
4pm shake
6pm a turkey burger with cheese over lettuce and a drizzle of ranch.
nibbles: a spoon of ground beef in marinara in the afternoon
a piece of cheese
2 mentos
2 bites of pasta
coffee

If anyone can talk me out of this cycle, please have at it. I feel miserable and out of control!!

[bikipatra]

Have you had enough? No one can give it to you or talk you out of it. Do you want it? More than the nibbles? Your good intentions mean crap if you carb out. If you need inspiration we have a whole board of it. But others can only do so much. You can lose that 5 pounds and more the same way you lost them before. You know the drill. You have to want it though.

[QT2Lose45]

i totally know what you are saying and how you are feeling... IT SUCKS. BUT, we have to decide what we want: to be slimmer and healthy, or keep eating what we want and staying the way we are? Believe me, i'm on my 3rd RE start. I know what you are feeling. Right now, I would love to eat whatever i want... not even because i'm hungry!!! But i have to remember that that's how i got this way in the first place! In my journal i wrote about the pics my friend took of me in the bathing suit I WANT To look GREAT in.... whooo.... that's a long time off. But it will be even longer if i'm not compliant.... the comparision of the pics really helps. But i just got done nibbling myself.... so just know that you are not alone! and it is a long journey, not a short fix.... if it was EASY we wouldn't this support forum in the first place....

okay... sorry about the 'going off on a tangent' thing!!! Just wanted to let you know there are others feeling the same.... Hope you can fight off the 'nibble demon'!!!

[FertileMyrtle]

Thanks B and Q! Pufffff....

I am so easily discouraged. I keep wondering if this is like South Beach, where I stopped losing after the first few weeks. I will go for 2 days, no loss (or even gain!!) and I cheat...and it starts over. I know that it takes me three days till ketosis, so I seem to screw up Day 2, b/c of majjjjjor cravings. Then I think, I need a new diet! I cant diet hop! MF is it!!

Of course I want to be thin again, but why am I gaining???? 2 nights of cereal does not equal 5 lbs!

OK--I just need to stop arguing with myself. I need to do this. I am almost over the hump.

Nothing tastes as good as tin feels.

Nothinggggg tastes as good as thin feels.

[BerkshireGrl]

quick note with my educated guess why you are gaining 5 pounds in 2 days...

you are restoring your body with glycogen when you carbo-load with the cereral, triscuits, whatever. of course this also knocks you out of ketosis... but when glycogen is stored again, part of the process involves binding it with water ---> sudden "weird" weight gain.

if you stick it out past the (i know! heh!) rough first few days, it will get easier. and you will definitely keep losing past 3 weeks

for more info on this carb/water gain phenomenon, google "why the scale lies" and read the article that pops up by renee cloe.

and stay away from the honey bunches of oats!

[hulagirlfromhawaii]

Okay girl, What's really happening here? You will only be able to continue with this if you figure out what else is happening in your life that is getting in your way of totally committing to this program .
I know for me, I'm a stress eater. If I get upset or stressed, I find myself searching the fridge for something to shove in my mouth. I've learned to stop myself to think about what I was doing before I binge. When I started MF, I burned my bridges and never turned back. I made a total committment to change, and do this program. I made a decision.

I cannot decide for you, but you can decide for yourself as to what is most important to you at this point in time. If taking the weight off is most important, then make a committment and stick to it until you reach your goal. If whatever else in your life is more important, then take care of that first, then come back to MF when you are ready.

You can do this! We are here to cheer you on!!! Let's shake it!!

[FertileMyrtle]

Ok here was yesterday:
10am shake
12 pm bar
2 pm shake
4 pm chicken drumstick
6pm lettuce with ranch
8pm a bar and jello
10 pm a can of green beans
and somewhere in there....a bowl of honey bunches...ekkk!!!

I am waiting still on new product. I imagine part of this is that MF in full seems really filling, and now I am doing half MF with subs.

Today
10am shake
12pm soup
2pm shake
4pm salad
6pm meat
8pm shake and then I am going to bed istead of hanging out in munch mode. I am splitting my L/G over 2 hours due to low supplies. It seems to help.

Good news though! 2 mornings ago I woke up weighing 181 and 179 throughout the day.
Today I woke up at 177.

I am going to fill up a water pitcher today and make sure I drink it. I'll check in later, my baby wants to play catch!

[FertileMyrtle]

now that I have a little more time, just poppin in to thank you ladies for your responses. Each of u brought me a different perspective. Hula, I have asked myself what the deeper issue could be. Who knows, I go through these phases where I dont want to sociialize, I dont want to hear my phone ring, and I just get all cozy at home. Nestle down into my hole. With chocolate? Part of it is that, the other is that I am not fully stocked with MF and I think I'm just not satisfied.
Berkshire, thanks for the info, I am definitley looking that up tonight--about glycogen stores.
Mid day weigh was actually 176--I never weigh less during the day than I did in the morning, so I am taking that as a good sign.
I am doing my best to stay focused with out having all my MF options. I should get some more soon, it sucks that we are so freakin broke right now. Things should be normal in Feb, but until then I imagine I will have to buy small rounds of MF, and do my best if there are in betweens like this.
Thanks for the posts, girls!

[dede4wd]

I hope you got your food and are doing better.

I also used to eat whatever was in my house for no reason. With my crazy lifestyle, food was my friend. I'm trying to make myself realize that while food was my friend, it was the kind of friend that kisses my boyfriend when I'm not around and steals my favorite earrings, some friend!

I realize that I don't even want the things I was eating (like my 2nd bar incidents of late)...just to have it. Was it self-sabatoge? Was it not wanting to be thin bad enough? I don't know. I'm just trying to make those things not even an option and my old friend food is the cheating thief this "friend" of mine!

DeDe

[bikipatra]

FM, I always look forward to your posts! You have a "take no prisoners" sense of humor and a great personality. I am sorry about your not having the Medifast foods right now. That definitely makes it tough. I know you can get through it though. I don't have to tell you not to give up, because you won't.

[FertileMyrtle]

Just checking in to say I am still around and stillll waiting for my delivery!! The chick I got it from had a death in the family, so I can be patient. Hopefully by Monday I will be back on track. This has been a good test for me, b/c I can see how my appetite has decreased. I have not had any binge issues, or even any cravings remotely uncontollable. I've been eating 4-6 times a day, and if less, my meals are so small b/c MF has trained me. So, good news, no gain. I lost most of the weight I had gained after being sick, except a pound.
Maybe this will help me have the rapid weight loss I experienced the first few weeks! So wish me luck come Monday. I am super excited.
It is mid night and time for bed, I will check back in once I get my shipment.

A

[dede4wd]

Have a great weekend and here's to hoping you get your medi-grub on Monday!

DeDe