The MakeMeThinner Medifast Support Forum

[sidrah]

Great job...send some patience my way, please! Have a good time.

[Karli]

Yeah, I actually don't know that sticking to plan is as much about "strength" as it is about patience; or perhaps there is strength in patience or so. Great to see you back here, Sidrah ! And thanks for the cheers, Robin .

Well, the good and actually rather unbelievable news is that I stayed on program throughout my stay out of town. The bad news is that I underestimated how difficult that would be for me. I think I stayed on plan largely in part because it has become my habit and way of life, so even when I took my life out of its usual context, that element of my existence stayed the same. What was difficult though were all of the emotions it forced me to deal with. Going away from my hometown and being somewhere else by myself to study piano, with the emmense endeavor that has been throughout my life and all things related, there are many, many, many emotions surrounding it. And, what is so unbelievable about having stayed on program this time was in part because I usually "cope" with all of those emotions by stuffing myself into oblivion. That time away is always an absolutely amazing time for reflection upon my life, and two visits ago, the night before I left, I made a list of the things I was unhappy about with my life, and most of it centered around, stemmed from, or actually caused my being overweight. I guess I was happy to be leaving my teacher's town this time with a little perspective in having accomplished something towards fixing that part of my life between visits. I still have a ways to go.

So, I weighed myself yesterday morning and I was down a pound since last Thursday, which wasn't amazing feeling to me, but at least it was another step downward. But, then today it was up about a half pound -- first time that's happened since I have been back on plan this time and weighing myself consistently. Perhaps there is a real kind of airplane bloat, but I would have thought that would be gone by this morning, but it's also nearly TOM, as well. I'm going to try not to worry too much about it, but I suppose I'm feeling pretty antsy to be reaching the 180's again. I haven't been there since last October, but I can rest assured that as long as I stick to the plan, I will probably be seeing those numbers within the next week and a half.

Hope all are well .

[Karli]

Well, not a lot to report here. My weight hasn't budged for a week . It was down a pound after having stayed on program out of town a week ago (finally moved my ticker to reflect), but there was airplane bloat (I guess) and then TOM bloat and it wasn't going ANYWHERE -- and that started messing with my head ! These last several days have been a bit of a struggle, as those stupid TOM cravings can be fierce, especially when the scale doesn't budge and that aspect is not there to help motivate me. I have also been baking and cooking for my husband -- what this has all meant is that I've struggled a bit mentally, took a few bites of off-program stuff, and I was even willing to throw in the towel completely for a piece of a pizza at one point, but then something else stepped in and wouldn't let me do that. Almost everyday I have resorted to having an extra supplement as a compromise with myself. If my "binge" has turned into only a few bites off program over a few days and/or an extra supplement during the day, I guess I can be happy about that progress, but I'd like to not do that, either. Where that leaves me is that I really need to have a perfect day today, get the ball rolling on the scale side of things again, and to get myself re-motivated.

Hope everyone has a good day .

[Karli]

Well, I'm happy to report that I have myself back on track now (for the past few days) and the scale has been moving down again. Not as much as I would love for it to be, but it's moving. I have had three very, very big tests in these last couple of weeks and so far --aside from a few bites off program over a few days-- I am passing them all with a deep conviction and 'knowing' that food will not solve my problems nor will it even truly bring me comfort amidst them. I am becoming aware that my lifestyle is changing, but it needs more time and more strengthening -- one day at a time !

Anyway, this morning I was at 191.6 -- Sleep hasn't been great, as we are waiting for news on my husband's job, but hopefully the news will be good news when it comes and my sleeping will return to being better and perhaps the scale will be even more cooperative at that point. I am really anxious to be reaching the 180's again !

Cheers to all.

[Karli]

Weightloss has been ... strange ! 191.4 this morning, after being up .4 (for no apparent eating reason) yesterday morning from the morning before. So, since two days ago, I have lost a whopping .2 pounds . I am very much hoping that this is just a strange couple of weeks, riddled with extra stress and less-than-ideal circumstances, and that this slower scale movement is not going to be indicative of the rest of my life !! argh !

Anyway, I AM happy, however, that it's still overall moving downward. Moving my ticker to accomodate and I am *sincerely* hoping to be hitting the 180's this week -- I don't think that's unrealistic ! I will like to reach goal by the end of July -- and that means that I would like to be around 188 by the end of this week. Obviously it's not fully up to me, but I'd sure like to do my part . I'm trying to start walking at least every day and start getting myself back into the habit of having some physical activity in my life, just for the sake of loving to be active ! Eventually that will turn into more activity that will fit my schedule, but for now I just need to start. It's been such a long road to balancing things out and learning what I really need to have in my life, how much, and so on. But, who says I needed to have it all figured out when I was born ? I guess I'm just doing what life is about.

Cheers !

[Karli]

Well, I had a little glimpse of being in the 180's this morning on my first scale step, but my next one (about 10 minutes later and no liquids or foods in between) was still in the 190's at 190.2. Grr . Ah well.

Sleep has been poor -- mostly I'm going to attribute my slower weightloss to poor sleep and higher stress than usual. On the positive front though, my weight is still headed downwards, no matter how slowly, and I am learning how to cope with not stress eating during seemingly stressful times. Gotta accentuate the positive !!

Cheers to all .

[oksoonergirl26]

I noticed that you used the word "happy" in an earlier post and you need to remember that when the scale won't budge. It takes such a positive outlook to really stay on track and accept yourself.

[katieb920]

Hey Karli Girl,

Just checking in on you, and see how you are doing?

[Karli]

Hi Katie,

Thanks for checking in. I'm not going to lie, I have taken a weekend off. Scale got me way down. I've never had it move that slowly on program before and it's a lot of money to be spending to lose around four pounds in 3 weeks. Don't get me wrong, I'm still happy about that, but I just felt like something had to change. So, I'm hoping that I have jolted my system a bit now and I'm planning to get back on program tomorrow for hopefully at least another month. My husband should find out on Wednesday (finally) if he keeps his job, and I'm really just hoping that things will start moving on the scale once that stress has been relieved.

I don't know if I'll post tomorrow or not. I do know that I don't want to just gain all of the weight back that I have lost in the last month and a bit on program, but I have no delusions about how tricky it can be to get back on program. I don't think that mindset is too far away, at least.

[Karli]

Well, as it turns out, my husband's job DID get cut and that has provided us a very unique opportunity in our lives. He worked with the same school district for 12 years, as middle school band and choir director, and then in the last two years he was half-time at the elementary level as a general music teacher. We were pretty much shocked and awed for a bit there, but it actually brought us closer together and we are pushing forward in our lives. He is opening a private studio, like me, in our home, and we will run our respective studios at opposite ends of the house. This has also propelled me to be thinking more professionally, to be more willing to have a public relationship (I have mostly just been hiding out and keeping to myself) and for us to decide to put together some music programs to help promote our business, as well as inspire the music-less . It's been an adventure, but certainly requires a huge dose of courage and faith.

In the meantime, not on plan and I probably won't be purchasing any MF for quite a while. I would like to just eat much better than I have been though, and I will use what supplements I have left to help me with that.

Cheers !

[Tawanda]

Karli, I wish you and your husband every success!