The MakeMeThinner Support Forum

[oksoonergirl26]

Oh wow!!!! I am dreaming of the brownies now. The portion control is important and I think that I am doing lots better with it.

[sidrah]

I was thinking of doing that 3-day walk. ANyone ever do it??
SOunds like it is hard, but fun, too. GOnna google it for some more info.

Just got back from taking a walk/playing in the park. it's nice out. Only 40 minutes or so but the kid had to go to bed, so we couldn't stay out too much more. Better than staying in working, I tell you!!

Back to work now. Uhhhhh. I cannot wait for Spring BReak. isn't that sad? Winter Break just ended.

[Tawanda]

Many years ago I worked for our school district (elementary school) and I remember counting the weeks until the next day off (President's day or spring break). I feel for you!

Hope you have a great day!

[oksoonergirl26]

Well, not to make you jealous but we are out today for weather and I am relieved. Of course, now this mean we don't get a four-day weekend for Easter now. I have never done the 3 day, but I know that it is expensive (around $2000). I know the money goes to research so that is why most people find sponsors for it.

[Joy]

Hoping a good day to you!

regards,
joy

[sidrah]

Minimum donation required is now $2300....wow, didn't expect that. Ehh, still got the info packet mailed to me. I don't think Novemebr 2010 is enough time, but next year??

Off to a conference in Phx. tomorrow so at least I can sleep a little later. I am very tired now, thought. Took a few 7-hr energy drinks over the last few days and I have not had much more than a 2-3 hour nap each night. Yuck, buro up "fruit punch=y" flavor of energy shot tastes like cherry cough syrup. Nah, not a fan. Had to get school work done even if it emans losing sleep for a while.


OK. gotta mapquest now, then go to bed, and probably fit a weekend excursion to the bano for a little first before getting back on the track leading to bed....

[oksoonergirl26]

I just can't do the energy drinks, between the taste and the jitters, it's enough to drive me crazy! Have fun in Phoenix!

[sidrah]

Almost have caught up on all my school work. I tried so hard last week to sleep from 9 to midnight then get up at midnight and work till it was time to go to work. I did it Mon and Tues and was too tired to do it Wed or Thur night. Hopefully with today and tomorrow off I will be able to get a lot done.

I had peach oatmeal with flaxseed this AM. I normally just grab apple cinnamon without even looking. I like the peach; I'm glad I grabbed that one. I think I am going to make some cookies tmrw. to bring to work. Pretzels are good, but something different....

Otherwise, have plenty to do today.

[oksoonergirl26]

Dear lord-how on earth do you function on that little amount of sleep??? I wouldn't even be able to contemplate teaching. Hope things get better!

[sidrah]

I guess they call these journals for a reason. Probably best if they are used as intended. It's hard to write what your brain thinks, especially when you know it will all come out as horribly negative....and worst, yet, you just can't bring yourself to care anymore. It has to say something when sleeping all day and calling in sick to work becomes the norm 2 days a week, when knowing you will probably get in trouble for not having paperwork done is not near the motivation to actually do it succesful completion. It has to say a lot when you dread going to school everyday, feel like you have come to the end of the rope and after 9 years with the same families and relatives realize no matter how many hours you work, even putting in 60 hours a week at school and even more when you finally make it home, some people will never get out of a small town mentality and dream solely of collecting checks on the first of the month. Maybe coming from 12 years of private school where nothing less than an A was acceptable makes me have higher expectations of all students, regardless of whether they have learning disabilities or not, actually moreso because of learning disabilities. It kills me to see parents defend their kids' unwillingness and laziness. It kills me that I am losing time at home to do things I want to do because I have spent every year of my life since I was 16 working 2 jobs and going to school full time and working all the time and only now when I realize I want to have time do just do "nothing" that I cannot make my mind accept that years of perfect attendance and hard work ultimately mean nothing.

I am the one who solves problems, mine and for people around me, not who complains about problems. Something as stupid as watching Bridezilla bothers me to no reasonable level lately; I know it is meant to highlight foolish behaviors, but it made me so mad to see that there are people who really are like that and no amount of producer manipulation can make a nice and normal sane person become a raving witch for the camera. It bothers me that there are people who exist that would act that way in front of their parents, or anyone else for that matter. It makes me re-think years of being the way I am and know no other way to even change it. I tried one year about 3 years ago to go home every day at 345 and do no work at home. That lasted til Wednesday of that week. It isn't in my nature to do that.

It bothers me no end that I am even writing this. I know I should be doing school work. I am almost ready to just quit. I feel like I should be getting fired. My work is good when I am there because I wouldn't let it be otherwise. But, it really pains me that not once a principal hasn't called me in and questioned it. If someone was doing a complete 180, I would know something was wrong and I would worry more about a complete change in character so much more than I would worry about the work. I wish I could be like the people who check into a resort and have no worries for a month. I wish everyday I woke up wasn't to an acid-filled stomach and dread. My life is really not that tough, but I just want to move away and go somewhere new. Obviously if you are here with me you know of one of the problems making that not happen. School paperwork plus teaching is about 2 full time jobs in one. Family things added in makes it hard to sleep at night. It's really, really difficult to figure out whether it is worth it or not. I don't know sometimes. But, that is my problem so hopefully one day I can figure it all out.

[lifelovinaries]

I do not even know how to begin to comment but i also didn't want your post to seem that it wasn't acknowledged. We get to a point where only we know what is best for us and we eventually realize the changes that need to be made then we implement those changes. So with that, i will just send

[Tawanda]

I'm so sorry to read that you are having such a rough time.

[sidrah]

Well, I guess Monday coincides with "I have no money til payday" and "going on vacation in a month" so gotta use what packets I have left. That way I don't have do to food shopping or MF shopping. I figure if I have gas money to get to and from work, I will be fine. I have plenty of protein and vegetables in the freezer.

Apartment hunting is now the goal of the weekends...gets tiresome after a while, but I will be moving about 20 minutes closer to work, so my drive will only be a half hour....just like it used to be, each way. Plus, I like that area better. I just want to finish everything paperwork-wise I owe so I can have a quiet, work-free Spring Break.

OK. Happy to check in and appreciative of comments from that last wearisome post. I am watching Rich Bride Poor Bride while I work. I like Platinum Brides, too. Cannot even imagine having enough money to build your own chapel for the wedding. Wow.

[sidrah]

Anyone ever lose weight in their earlobes?????

[katesmom]

Hi Sidrah,
I just caught up on your last couple of posts and I can really relate to the demands of working at school ...I am a school psychologist and I can really understand your thoughts and I sit in endless meetings, watching how parents are either oblivious to their child's IEP, or are over protective and request the "world", but are not interested in making the effort themselves, to help their children at home with school work !!
It is a battle and half the time all of your hard work is not verbally acknowledged, right??

On another note, I could not help but chuckle at your last post..losing weight in your earlobes...Now that is one place that I DON'T need to lose weight !
Have you lost weight in your earlobes??