The MakeMeThinner Support Forum

[missahc]

I hate myself! I lost 130 pounds, started exercising and felt good.
But then I gained about 30 pounds back, stopped exercising, started'
binging again..... I am afraid to weight myself now.
Told myself that I would quit tomorrow .....
Thank God tomorrow is here.
Day 1 of medifast again.....painful...i pray i will make it through without
going through the drivethru again.

[bikipatra]

Welcome back. You are very lucky. You know how the program works and that it worked for you before. I'll be praying for you too. I have had difficulties lately myself. I look forward to getting to know you.

[Elizabeth]

Welcome back Ania. What a pretty name!
Sounds like you are ready to drop those pounds girl.

One way that I'm trying to think of MF as is a life plan for weight control.
There are many here that have gotten to goal and have a specific plan for maintaining for the rest of their life.

I've done it many times before...lose weight (alot!) and go off because I get cocky, comfortable, feel better about myself.... and think I can control things easily...didn't work. MF is a great plan and the simplest I've come across.

Best wishes to you!! So nice to have you here.

[Mike]

Ania,

Glad you are back... you can do it (as you know). Welcome and let us know if you need anything here.

[missahc]

Day 2: I made it through day 1. Thank you all for cheering me on.

I wonder why some people hate themselves (for whatever reason) and some people love themselves.

When I grew up, I was taught to be embarrassed and ashamed of my weight problem which made me ashamed of myself. My Mom put me on a diet when I was 8 years old. I was a fat kid which really played a major role in the formation of my personality. I am a "don't make waves" kind of person. Timid and shy. Hoping no on will notice the fat.

Not only is the weight bad for your health, it's bad for your head. Food is used to ease the pain but....it makes the pain worse. A vicious cycle.
Feel bad, eat, gain weight, feel bad etc. Stay home...isolate so you can
eat more.

Today I am changing the cycle. Using the 5 and 1 medifast plan, going for a walk, drinking water, call a friend.

Thanks
Ania

[hulagirlfromhawaii]

Hi Ania.

Thanks for being so honest in your journal. Besides helping you, it helps those who read it. We can all find common ground here.

Our childhoods were very similar. My mom put me on a diet at a very young age too, and I've had a love hate relationship with food, body image etc.. ever since. How sad. But now that we are adults we can see the light and make our own decisions. I know I need some hand holding to break through the old patterns that have been engraved in my brain, so this is great place for understanding and support.

You accomplished a great goal, and you can do it again... especially cause you know what to do! We'll be cheering for you!

[Tawanda]

Welcome back!

[missahc]

Thanks for your encouraging responses. They inspire me.

Day 7. I am still inspired by the 100 day challange. Everything is going
well. I think the worst time for me is when all the stress of the day is over. My pattern is to sit on the couch, watch TV and eat to relax.
I miss the eating and am looking for a substitute. It seems like I can't truly relax until I have the food.....or I get depressed at times at the thought of giving up "my food". But I realize now....no more fooling myself, no stinkin thinkin.....I must control food for the rest of my life.
I am not the kind of person who can take a vacation from my healthy lifestyle plan....It takes months and years to get back on my healthy plan when I do.