by dede4wd » February 7th, 2008, 8:14 pm
Hi,
I just wanted to thank everyone for checking in on me and my airline drama.
My bag showed up today. I'm ASHAMED to no end to say I nosedived off the wagon. This nosedive involved both of my demons...yes, food AND cigarettes to celebrate my 5 months smoke-free.
I created a new position for myself...I'm with a new group that don't know me from Adam and I'm suddenly having to prove myself again. All the man-doors I kicked open early in my career...are there again and I found myself getting sent to get drinks. I just don't know if I have the strength to go through that again and I fell back into this MESS...
The slide lasted 2 days, some of it just not making good choices (or anywhere near good) while my bag was gone. I'm back on now, I didn't bum any more cigarettes off anyone.
I'm very sorry to those of you that read this that I let down...but know that you guys are what kept this slide at 2 days. Luckily, I'm on the road for a couple of more weeks, so I won't be able to weigh, so I won't see what I've done to myself! I know I set myself back a couple of weeks and re-set my usual 6-week plateau that I've had every time I re-started.
Anyway, I'm here, I'm accountable, I AM finishing the 100 days of compliance and I'm ashamed. I don't intend to remain ashamed, so I'm going to finish with this ridiculous emotional stuff and continue on with my goal to be healthy.
Hope everyone is doing well.
Age: 37 Ht: 5'10"