The MakeMeThinner Support Forum

[explorthis]

For those of you that have tried Medifast, and seen large loss results, when you CHOOSE to have a lapse in the program, or a “do over” and I mean C-H-O-O-S-E, make that conscious decision to go off the program, what goes through your mind when you order that meal off the menu, or when you go to the cupboard, and pull out that taboo item? When you sit in the couch, and justify in your head, before you actually get off the couch, to go in the kitchen, before you get in the car, or while you’re driving to the fast food joint. What actually happens in your mind that split second just before you accept that minute of glee as you put that item in your mouth? Does guilt come into play, the second you put it in your mouth? Does guilt come when you’re finished, or after you say screw it, and go back for more, because you have already sliced your wrist for the day? Do you do it again the next day, because today was a failure? Do you ever think, this is just too hard, and I enjoy being overweight?

Do you try and justify your CHOICE with excuses like oh, I am under stress, or its just one item, or this is not going to do any damage, or I am fat, still have a long way to go, this is not going to make any difference, or since I have lost weight, I deserve an off program item, hey, I am just having one of this item, or my loss is so slow, I just don’t care?

For those of you contemplating Medifast, or those of you that have been on Medifast, and gone off of it for whatever reason, what goes through your mind every minute of every day, every time you look in the mirror, and say to yourself, if I had only NOT eaten that one item, or if I had just stuck with it?

What is your reasoning for starting and stopping over and over, or continually coming here to read posts, reading success stories, looking for that person you like, watching their magic number to drop to a new club mark, knowing full well Medifast is the magic wand you have been looking for? You read over and over, day after day, looking for a new post, where someone has posted success. You come here over and over. You visit the site, not logging in, hoping no one will see your screen name as logged in, for that last ditch hope that something will click, perhaps the light will turn on (again) for you, that last ray of hope that you can do Medifast.

When you read the posts, read the success stories, see a fellow Medifast member reach another milestone in their desire to be thin, do you get jealous? Do you secretly get mad, at yourself, and think this should be you? Do you wonder why his person has willpower and you don’t? Do you get mad within yourself and wish, just wish you had this tiny power over yourself to just do it?

How many of you have started and stopped, started and stopped, or had a “do over” or ten, and know in your heart, if only you stuck with it like it was designed, you would be at your goal, or substantially closer to it?

Do you see yourself here?

Lets not call it cheating, because it’s only you against you, heck, who is going to know, but YOU?

Answer these questions above if you choose, if you want, if this is you. I want to let everyone know, I don’t know if there is a better feeling than being thin. There is a light at the end of YOUR tunnel, but only if you want to look for it. This is not the hardest thing you will ever do. Losing the weight is such a rush. Tell me you have not felt this at anytime while on Medifast.

Lastly, why do you keep making these excuses?

Inquiring minds what to know.

-Mike

[Simmshe]

Great post Mike--it doesn't get any more real than what you wrote and the "food for thought" that you gave us!

Of course I'm still relatively a Medifast newbie so I can't speak much on do-overs from the perspective of having been on plan for a long time, but I just wanted to chime in with my experience.

I first contemplated Medifast last October (imagine--I could be at my goal by now if I had followed through!). Well, I thought that I was pretty pumped. Ordered a month's supply of supplements and got myself ready to go. When my shakes arrived, orange-pineapple, I tried one and couldn't stomach it. Tried a bar--pretty tasty. By mid-day, I told myself that I couldn't stomach these shakes. If they all tasted like this, there was no way I was going to make it on this plan (I only tried one flavor though, but put them all in the same boat!). "I have never liked shakes anyways," I told myself. Excuses. I sold my products on Ebay the next day. The fact is, I wasn't mentally ready to begin Medifast. I wasn't willing to let go of food and binge eating ...

Fast forward to this year. I actually started Medifast around three to four times before I finally committed--once in May, once in June, twice in early July--never making it past two days mostly, and six days, once. I felt miserable and self-hating, feeling like I would never be able to do this--I still couldn't let go of my medication--food! Yes, "I was too stressed out," "too many things on my plate," "I guess I'm just not mentally ready to do this yet," "now just isn't a good time to start this," "oh well, I might as well gorge myself since I messed up--I'll get it together next week," and yadda, yadda, yadda. But then I started getting angry--I was sick of myself and my excuses. I've told myself these things for years! "If not now, when??," I started asking myself. And after, yet another, nauseating binge, feeling physically sick and depressed, a quote started replaying itself over and over in my mind: "If you keep doing what you've always done, you'll keep getting what you've always gotten." I didn't want the life that I had created for myself anymore, and I was tired of being my own victim and a slave to my comfort. These thoughts started clicking for me. I would be the same miserable-feeling "failure" next year if I kept accepting my old excuses, which seemed soooo valid to me. And I got a final kick in the butt by my therapist (more like a life coach!) who was smashing every "valid" excuse I threw her way. She told me that I have to COMMIT to myself--no matter what. No matter how difficult things may get, making a commitment means sticking it out--regardless. She reinforced what I already knew but had never been willing to do.

Nevertheless, I still struggle. I still want to eat regular food sometimes. My brain is still wired along the lines of food=comfort, and at the first sign of emotional distress and anxiety, these cravings come out HARD. This wiring will not change overnight, so I have to be patient and continue creating new behaviors and thoughts. Just yesterday I struggled a lot. I was just about trembling and crying from denying myself some potato chips (talk about an addiction!). I mean I had to fight these cravings like my life depended on it (and it does!)--they were so strong. Felt like such a hardcore addict. But I knew where the cravings came from. I've been feeling very anxious over the past few days about some things in my life. I've been feeling a little blue (thanks in great part to my hormones ), so my brain wanted my old standby--food. I didn't give in though, when in the past I would have gone out and bought $20 worth of food to devour in 20-30 minutes. I slowed my thinking, breathed a little deeper, tried to get in touch with my emotions, drank water until I was floating, chewed a wad of Trident gum, and reminded myself of how I knew that when I started this that it was going to be uncomfortable, and told myself, "remember Sheryl, you said you were going to have to be willing to be uncomfortable when you started this life change and we are sticking to this commitment come hell or highwater!"

Well, that's my piece . I am going to do this--all the way, knowing full well that it's not going to be easy because of the food addiction I've had since I was 14 years old. It takes time to "undo" thoughts and old patterns, so I'm just working on being as patient and understanding with myself as I continue changing my life.

I'm wishing that we all can get and keep things going. Self-exploration, being willing to fully step and dwell outside of comfort zones, and commitment--these are my mottos !

Sheryl

[RavenKat]

I am going to ramble and say some stuff that I am not proud of feeling, so beware. Please know that I am venting and mean no offense to anyone. That being said:

My current brain fart has to do with "Not having learned anything." I have yet to learn how to eat healthily and not compulsively. Fasting is a great weight loss tool and and works when you are 100% but so far, all I have learned is that I can lose weight on 500 calories and gain it on 800+ calories. I feel so deprived, that when I do eat (even though I shouldn't) it's nothing but crap. Exactly where does the eating of lean meat and veggies come in? I can fast for 7 days straight and eat junk for a couple of hours one day and gain it all back. How effed up is that? I'm still under the delusion that I will be able to eat crap SOMEDAY. Not all day everyday but sometimes. Do I have to starve 90% of the time so I can eat some dessert? Not liking this outcome here.

Please know that I am aware that this is an excuse - a way for me to let myself eat under the guise of logic. I know I sound like a whiny baby and a food addict - because I am.

I am jealous of Mike and Nancy for being so good at this. I believe you must be from another planet. But I also wonder what you two eat all day. How did you go from being 100 pounds overweight to knowing how to eat? So do you eat 800 calories a day now? Are you hungry all the time still? That petrifies me.

How come I can quit doing drugs, quit drinking, quit smoking and not do this successfully?! On the other hand, how come losing 50 pounds isn't good enough? ALSO, where is everybody? I'm starting to think that Mike and Nancy are anomolies (very friendly and caring anomolies) but how come they are basically the only ones that can do this? Yes, her husband and brother did it - okay 4 people. And lots of us have lost a big chunk but there are so, so many that signed up and have never been seen from again.

I am running around in circles, here. I want to start exercising and eating like a healthy person. I don't want to be hungry for the rest of my life. Even if by some miracle I go ahead and lose another 35 pounds by fasting, then what?

I'm confused, I'm embarrassed to be feeling these feelings, I'm tired, I'm scared, I'm depressed, I'm angry...what else? I'm not as fat as I was but I'm still not a Hottie. I want to throw my scale out the window and jump out after it. (figuratively not literally)

*sigh*

Kat

[elle4nelly]

Ironically for me, it all boils down to this:
Learning NOT to TRADE what I want MOST for what I want NOW.
I have not found the key to do so successfully yet, but I am not giving up yet.
Many times, I have reiterated how strongly I want to lose weight. And frankly I couldn’t bear another minute of me overweight. I absolutely hate it. Yet some days, it seems that despite all the desire I have to lose weight, motivation escapes me. Yeah, there are some psychological issues to be dealt with such as “ Fattitudes”. Yeah, there are a lot of internal conflicts within. But all and all, one thing and only one thing remain true to me. I don’t like being overweight. I absolutely hate it and as long as I have a breath in me, I WILL NEVER STOP TRYING. There will be falls and there will be slides BUT none will make me quit my attempts to lose weight. Even if (hypothetically spoken) I quit Medifast, it wouldn’t be long before I’d found myself on some other diet. BECAUSE I want THIN that Bad. I wish I could be like you Mike. With exceptional built in “Tenacity” and “motivation”.
But I am not! To me Life (just like Medifast) is like a Highway. Some travel from point A to Z never faltering, never questioning. It’s all a straight path for them. But not me. I take the long scenic way home. I wonder off and get lost. Then I find my way back to the highway but not before making a few U-turn and loop around and even breaking down. But eventually, I DO FIND my way HOME.
Rest assured, that I will make it home to Thinville USA.


Nelly

[explorthis]

Nellie:

Mike. With exceptional built in “Tenacity” and “motivation”. But I am not! To me Life (just like Medifast) is like a Highway. Some travel from point A to Z never faltering, never questioning.

Tenacity, I like that word.

Defined: That quality of bodies which keeps them from parting without considerable force.

In regular English, it means how hard is to do something, and how bad do you want it.

Nellie, I am not that tenacious. I have driven just like you down the A-Z highway my entire life. I just happened to get off at exit “Y” this time just before the end. I falter, I question. AS I am stating below, I am no different than you – EGGZACTLY the same thought processes go in and out of my head, just as they do you. This time I just decided this was Mikes time, and instead of carpping, I got of the pot.


Kat:

I am jealous of Mike and Nancy for being so good at this. I believe you must be from another planet.

First of all, no more sighing, this is a BRAND NEW DAY!

I don’t want you to be jealous, but I want you hot, boiling, pee’d off, good and mad. This is pain, and I want you to feel this plain and simple. I want you to be sick and darn tired of yo-yoing and finish this once and for all. I am not from another planet (lest you ask my teen) I am the same as you EXACTLY the same, food addict, fat person trying to get out. Be mad; be very mad – this is the fire that is brewing to get you out of this hole! You are going to do this – with help and support.

I have learned is that I can lose weight on 500 calories and gain it on 800+ calories. I feel so deprived, that when I do eat

Ok magic spot - hit on the head. You say you CAN and DO lose weight at 500 calories. Then this is the way it’s gotta be. 500 calories = 5 Medifast shakes period (if you chose modified – this is fine) the 800 calorie part can come later, now – you know gospel truth 500 calories a day, allows Kat to lose weight. Deprivation? Common, you’re dieting. Dieting is depriving you of all the bad “carp” that we have had for so long. THIS IS A SHORT TIME. Food will still be there when your ready for it, ALL OF IT, I promise.

How did you go from being 100 pounds overweight to knowing how to eat? So do you eat 800 calories a day now? Are you hungry all the time still? That petrifies me. I have yet to learn how to eat healthily and not compulsively.

I don’t know how to eat. I want to eat everything in sight. I am hungry. I want 15 cheeseburgers and 15 fries 7 days a week. I am no different than you; my brain still thinks the SAME, SAME, SAME!! The brain is a pretty smart cookie, and plays games with us, thin or fat. I am a fat guy in a thinner body. 42 years of this bad life style, is going to take awhile to change. 7+ months I am at the same weight. (‘cept a few up or down) Why am I doing it? Because being fat SUCKS. Being thin is all the difference in the world. I did not make life this way; I did not cause the population of the world to think you should be in a size 3 or whatever bleach blondes are wearing. We all want the other guy’s things. I am learning every day what to eat, and what not to eat. The only difference is now I am thinner, and I FLAT REFUSE to ever go back. I have seen both sides of the fence. I finally traded in my 67 VW Bug, and am testing out (for 7 months so far) this new Vette. Guess what, this Vette drives pretty nice. I am keeping the Vette (thin guy) instead of going back to the VW.

You still as of this writing have 35 pounds or so to go. (per your signature) Leave the learning how to eat part out for now. Focus 100% on the NOW part, get the weight off. Heck, I will give you my phone# when your ready and I will personally walk you through everything I eat, and what I have learned thus far. It ‘aint much, but its working. If I can teach you what I have learned, I will be more than glad to. I want you to have this feeling, you want to have this feeling.
DO NOT be jealous, but keep the faith, and the fire.

I can fast for 7 days straight and eat junk for a couple of hours one day and gain it all back.

Ok this is really not true, though you think it is. You’re not dieting religiously for a week, loosing whatever 10+ pounds, and then in 1 day gaining back all the weight you lost, it just seems like it. I can be good all week, maintain my weight, have some sodium laden item, or eat a little more than I should, next morning I see 2-3-4 pound gain. I have a cow, because I am gaining. Wait, it’s been 7 months, I am learning something valuable – about my body. I did not eat excessively; I ate a little out of the norm. I eat normally again, and within 2-3 sometimes 1 day, I am right back at my proper weight.

Thoughts……

[elle4nelly]

I want you to be sick and darn tired of yo-yoing and finish this once and for all.

Be mad; be very mad – this is the fire that is brewing to get you out of this hole!

Mike? What can I say? This is what I want very badly. To be mad, to be sick and tired of fat, tired and really angry, enough to get out of the Yo-Yo game.

Thank you Mike!

Nelly

[Alison]

Wow!!
I can't believe you wrote that Mike. Took guts! I have been thinking the same thing wondering why it seems like so many people are kinda picking at the bandaid so to speak itstead of pulln' that sucker off! I am 4 pounds from goal now at 109. WHen I was on vacation I'd say I ate about 1000-1200 a day. I did not gain weight. I couldn't from a scientific stand point! Lost a pound actually. Anyway, sure part of me wants to stuff peanut butter cups down my throat especially when I think about my sick Dad or when I have a fight with my mother. I didn't want to go back to the shakes after vacation but the fact of the matter is I want to hit goal and stay there. Why? How can I control myself? Honestly, I look great. I didn't want to brag before- I know lots of people are struggling but if it will motivate anyone I will. I am a size 2or 3. I spent the weekend buying low rise jeans. I actually came out of the dressing room and allowed the sales lady to help me. It wasn't embarassing saying no the 4 is too big please get me a 2. Loved it! I go to spas now and let them wax me so I look good in my bikini. I am not ashamed, it's like go ahead take a look, this is the best me I can be and I look great! I pick my husband up from work in these little tank tops and mini skirts I feel 18 again!(not the 18 I was, the age 18 I always wanted to be) My husband tears up literally several times a week and says I can't believe how beautiful you are. I saw the dreaded bookclub girls (you know the caddy 22 year olds I felt like crap in front of) They didn't know what to say except how they didn't realize how 'small" I was. BTW they are all dieting now!!! Ha ha (they said they never dieted to the old fat Alison now they call me to see if I will show them how to workout!! I also have oodles of confidence and am making plans to start my own business!! So to answer the question how can I not eat all those goodies (which I can but in moderation) it's because I am finally thin, not I lost a lot but I can't see thin. I gave myself the chance to see the end and it stopped the gorging. I fill up with a whole different life. The chocolate is just not worth it. I love knowing I'll fit into my new clothes EVERYDAY! I love knowing I can go to any party I get invited too (like at a pool or on a beach or anywhere that requires shorts) I love that my husband is soooo proud of me. I love that I feel and look 10 years younger! I love that I get respect and attention up the ying-yang. My husband say it's great going to stores with me because the salesman run over to offer help and give us the best deals. I asked if he was jealous he laughed and said the truth is every man wants other guys to think his wife is hot! So there it is I am HAPPY! That's how you stay on track you just have to grit your teeth and get there. Stop screwing around it's a waste of time!!
BTW the reason I haven't posted my picts is because I wanted a true before and after shot. I need that- to go to the end. 4 more pounds!!
I know all of you can do this. I am no different I used to plan my life around food. I started MF because I could no longer function. I ate and felt guilty and rarely did anything else. I was isolated and I was destroying my husband with my depression and alienation. I gave myself the greatest gift A CHANCE AT THE BEST LIFE!! I feel like I can do anything now. I am not that fat little girl anymore. Sure she creeps back into my head almost everyday but I don't look like her and when I feel like her it sure helps to dance around in front of the mirror in my size 2 slim fit low rise jeans!
God Bless!

[Sylvia]

Great post Allison! I'm with you all the way. And as usual, Mike says what many others are feeling. I think one of the great things about this plan is that you're either in or you're out. This is not something you can do half way. It is very stark - you're either eating on the plan or you're off. I am committed to seeing this all the way through.

This is not pleasant. It is hard. It is deprivation. On the other hand, I feel better than I have in years. I am starting to look really good. I am happier than I've been in a long time. The positives so far outweight the negatives there is no real comparison.

I ran into a plateau a few weeks back that I could have used as an excuse to say the program was no longer working and quit. Instead, I changed things up a bit. I went to the 5-1 plan to get more protein, I started exercising for an hour almost every day. I was rewarded by a loss of over 6.5 pounds in the last 2 weeks.

This is about discipline. It is about changing your priorities. It is about recognizing that food doesn't make you happy. Maybe I'm lucky - I don't have any deeply rooted food issues. I just like to eat - often and in large quantities. I will always have to fight that temptation but it is so worth it.

[Nancy]

I‘ve had a binge-y feeling or two since I have been maintaining. No particular reason for it. No additional stress. Nothing that I can put my finger on that triggered me into a binge – nothing other than the pure selfish fact that I just WANTED to have something and it was not meal time.

I planned to do it. A couple of months ago, I wanted to have a Dove ice cream bar. I certainly CAN have a Dove bar. I went to Safeway and decided that I could buy a SINGLE Dove Bar in a little cardboard box or I could buy a bigger BOX. I could buy the BOX and eat them all. I could buy a BOX and eat one whole bar, and then I could take a bite out of each of the other three bars and dump the rest. I could do whatever I wanted to do. I wanted TWO bars. And I had ‘em. I ate ‘em in the parking lot. I came home, satisfied and went back to my now ‘regular Thin way’ of eating.

I allow myself to have treats all the time. I just do not over-eat two days in a row. I allow for special events or special treats by keeping my calories low on other days. I have a “calorie bank,” if you will and I am very careful how I spend my calories. I spend them on the things I really want.

I want THIN more than I want OBESITY; therefore, it is not a difficult choice for me when I make food selections.

I do not feel put out, I do not feel cheesed that I can’t eat whatever I want whenever I want, I do not feel like God has cheated me because food turns to flab on me and not on Unca’s bod. It’s just the way it is. Every day is a choice: FLAB or THIN? It’s easy.

I do not live in a bubble. There is food all around me. I make better choices now. I know the consequences for the wrong choices.

I am making some fresh blueberry tarts for a friend of mine who is having a luncheon.

I LOVE Blueberry tarts. I am an awesome cook and I can really bake delectable pies, cakes and candies. I shall make a small tart for the MakeMeThinner cottage and take the other two to my friend for her luncheon. I will also be stopping by my fave bakery to pick up a couple of loaves of fresh Sweet Black bread to drop off for her luncheon as well. I will have one slice of Sweet Black Bread with no butter or jam. I am saving calories today (and yesterday) for the slice of bread and the slice of blueberry tart that I’m gonna have on Friday.

Moderation is my mantra. I can have it all; I just do not choose to EAT it all.

Nothing tastes as good as thin feels.

I like how I look and how I feel. I look pretty dang (is that all right for a pastor to say?) good. Uh, oh, I almost said, “I look pretty dang good for an older lady” but ya know what? I just look pretty dang good. Period. No ‘older lady’ stuff for me.

It takes discipline for foodies to get thin and to stay thin. Yeah, it takes tenacity. Every day. Day in, day out, doing the things that are right for me.

Am I deprived? Naw. How can I feel deprived when my husband can’t keep his hands off my tiny hiney?

Am I deprived to have men run ahead of me to open the door or to offer to carry my groceries to the car?

My Daddy winks his eighty-year old left eye at me and smiles. He tells me he’s proud of me. THAT is not being deprived!

How can I ever say I feel deprived when I have a CLOSET FULL of awesome trendy clothes?

I don’t know why I “made it” this time and never made it to my goal weight before but I think that I got to the very lowest of the low points in my life. My self-loathing was intense. I knew that NO one MADE me fat but ME and M.E. alone. I decided that I was worth one more go around. I decided to give Medifast a shot and to do it the right way – by the book – all the way. Medifast gave me its best – 23 years of success, over a million users, over 15k docs, clinical studies, over thirty years of soy research by duPont.

Medifast does not fail, it cannot fail.

People fail to use it properly. People fail to do it.

I Medifast every day, I eat regular food every day, too.

Because I can.

You can, too, IF ya want to badly enough. Medifast does not fail.

[Simmshe]

Great posts! Thanks Alison and Nancy for allowing me to live vicariously through you all for a moment . If my resolve was 100% before, it's 150% now!

And I'm right there with you Sylvia:

This is not something you can do half way. It is very stark - you're either eating on the plan or you're off. I am committed to seeing this all the way through.

I think that this mindset is a prerequisite for success with this. If we don't have it, we better figure out how to get it!

Thanks again guys!

Sheryl

[hawaiiwhatnot]

Aloha gang,

Mike, this is one of the best threads I've seen here. Discussions on motivation, tenacity, deprivation, commitment - now that's getting to the heart of it.

Now on my third month of MF and 35 pounds lighter, I haven't cheated YET but I've been standing on the threshold more than a few times, and thought I'd share my thoughts during those moments, hours, and/or days of temptations.

Mike, as you mentioned, "CHOICE" is my key element. Each and every time I feel like cheating, I've STOPPED and made a CHOICE.

It's like my angel on my right shoulder and the devil on my left have this debate -

Before I can listen to anything else, the devil always starts first with:
"Oh, it won't hurt - don't even think about it, just eat it! You can diet another time! You know this diet works, so just start the diet over again tomorrow. You'll feel better if you eat that goodie now. AND You DESERVE it."

My angel has more and better ammunition, like:
"Do you realize how spoiled you are in America? You expect instant gratification with everything - Are you kidding me? And you're feeling deprived? There are millions of starving people on this planet, and you, my dear, have had WAY TOO MUCH for too long - so TOUGH IT OUT! "
She even quotes Dr. Phil: "YOU DON'T HAVE TO LIKE IT, YOU JUST HAVE TO DO IT!"

Well, needless to say I'm probably bordering on schizophrenia. But someone once said, "You're never alone when you're schizophrenic..."

Regardless and most importantly, I remind myself of the big picture. It's like I divorce myself from the emotions for a minute so I can think logically, and make a good choice. It's militaristic but it's getting me there, and I hope it keeps working. I'm definitely getting thinner by stopping, thinking, and making the right CHOICE!

Alison, your post is amazingly motivating-- THANK YOU!

A MF Pal,
Camille

[RareBear]

Over five years of eating my feelings instead of dealing with my feelings. Over five years of carrying the world and its weight literally all over my body. And then there was an entire lifetime of not truly dealing with a childhood filled with abuse and pain, except by means of emotional eating. Finally dealing with all of these things, one by one, was the key and MF the keyhole to open the door to my authentic self. It was realizing that the dragons needed to be slayed and I was the one having to do the slaying and armor was not an option. That process took over two years, with lots of one step forward and two steps back during that time. But I wasn’t put on this planet to be a victim or to victimize myself because of the acts of others. I’m made of finer stuff then this. I hope that every single one of you know that you are made of finer stuff then that, too. What we do with our lives, what our choices are, all start with realizing that we deserve the best and the best must come from us, first and foremost. With that in mind, when a crave comes along that threatens to derail your MF efforts, just remember these two things: “I deserve the best and the best starts with me”, because, as I read here before, “I own it”.
Wishing everyone the best,
RB
BTW: My daughter asked me if I felt like cheating on this plan. I told her that would be like me robbing myself.

[RavenKat]

I had to look around for this post - glad it was moved to "The Elevator".

Mike - You know what? You're right. Let my eating plan wait until I actually get there. Scr*w this playing around. I want these last 35 pounds off and I want them off now (and forever). Do I want to be goofing off for another 6 months when I can be done in 3?!

I have a week off between my current job and my next one and I am going to use it to reestablish my fasting regime. PLUS throw a little exercise in there too. I'm going to reset my stats to reflect my new info - take out the other weight I lost. I've been using that as a crutch. New diary, rearrange my shake closet and get all my diet sodas in a row.

Yes, I'll be hungry. Yes, I'll have craviings. SO?

Eat my dust McDonalds!

Kat

[Carrie]

Wow, great thread.

All I can think of to say is, "Mike, if I had all those answers, I'd be wearing size 10 pants right now." Unfortunately there is no self help book that spells out the answers, these are things we each have to figure out for ourselves. No one but me can change my eating habits.

And Elly, I think you're right - to me the only definition of failure is giving up all together. I refuse to give up like I used to.

And Kat - girl I *KNOW* exactly how you feel, I'm right there with ya.

Sorry I haven't been around much lately, I've been having some serious personnel problems at work. And today I've got my eye on hurricane Charley - it's heading our way. I've gotten the windows boarded up and am waiting for further updates to make the decision whether to stay at home or go up the Keys to my Aunt's house..... ugh. Hopefully we won't have a direct hit.

Good to see everyone, hope you all are doing well -
See you soon,
Carrie

[explorthis]

CARRIE!!!!!!!!!

I missed you.. Glad you came by.

There is always California, gonna be 102 here today, tomorrow, and next year.

I got a spare room if you need somewhere to stay!

The only weather change we see, is opening the fridge.

-Mike