The MakeMeThinner Support Forum

Taangrl21 wrote:I am sticking with my old scale at home that i have been using, but still going by the loss of pounds not actual number.When I go to the doctor I will figure it out by what they weigh me in at. Hope that makes sense.

That sounds sensible!

Well I decided to hold off on my exercise this week. I dont want to throw anything outta whack and with my schedule this week I might as well wait till things are back to normal, schedule wise at least. So Monday is the day...

For my lean and green, I had baked cod and green beans, garlic and mushies, sauteed, in spray, in my pink breast cancer pan...Its so pretty.

I have had alot of time to think today and realize that I dont want to be where I was the last time I lost weight, in 2002/03,got down to 142 and in a size 10/11. I wasnt confident or completley accepting of myself. I feel like I deserve to be the whole package, that I envision myself being. Beautiful,smart, CONFIDENT, strong, successful, emotionally,mentally, and spiritually stable,and happy in the body I create. I dont want to be this young women with no direction in my life, unhappy, defensive and negative, dressing in schlumpy clothes all the time.
I see what I see in my mind and keep reaching for it. This is definitly a journey for me in more ways than one.There is no turning back.No stopping.Just moving foward.I gotta start taking care of me and the body that supports me. If not I will only fall apart...

Tomorrow starts my third week on MF.I am excited and pushing foward full force to my Valentines Day goal. Hmmm...what should I get myself when I reach it?

You could treat yourself to a massage at a spa for your valentines goal... they will probably have specials around that time. Take a day to pamper yourself!! nails, facial, massage, then buy a new outfit! that would make a GREAT day!

I loved your post about the whole package. I realized I was concentrating on what size I wanted to be, not WHO I wanted to be and have been working on the other areas as well!

DeDe

Debra, you already are the whole package, you just don't know it yet. If it takes weight loss or a change of clothes to get you to see how beautiful you are inside and out, then do what it takes. Don't let go of your dreams! Every step just reveals more of the real you to YOU!

WEEK 3- DAY 1

Hello everyone!

Well my night wasnt pleasant sleeping wise.So i will be yawning all day long while at my cube.Weighed myself but no change but thats okay.Tomorrow is another day.

QT- I went and actually looked for spa packages...but they were very expensive right now. So I looked into upscale salons for a nice color and new style.So I may do that.If not at Valentines Day, definitly when I get to like 175lbs.Thanks for the idea...

Dede- I feel, myself included, people get so wrapped up into the scale and a number and weight in general, that we dont always remember to look at ourselves as a whole. Its quite a journey physically but if anything I think thats the easy part of losing weight,granted it may be slower than we'd like.But I remember a post Biki did on someones thread about your mind catching up with your body.And that is really true.Its weird b/c our mind tells us negative things quicker, than in letting us see the postive as a whole. Which is why some people lose weight and still think they are fat...or at least I was one who did that. I am working on changing that this time round.Im glad you could relate to my post. I have see your pics and you look great!!!

Biki-Youre right, I dont want to let go of my dreams.No one should ever have to.Because there are so many people already out there that do live there dreams.So its like, why cant I? And yes for me, conquering this life long weight problem will put me on the "If I can do this, I can do anything natural high." Definitly up for that.Long overdue.Thanks for you encouragement.

So my plan for the day:

630-shake
930-bar
1230-soup
330-oatmeal
630-L&G
930-Cappucino

I have had alot of time to think today and realize that I dont want to be where I was the last time I lost weight, in 2002/03,got down to 142 and in a size 10/11. I wasnt confident or completley accepting of myself. I feel like I deserve to be the whole package, that I envision myself being. Beautiful,smart, CONFIDENT, strong, successful, emotionally,mentally, and spiritually stable,and happy in the body I create. I dont want to be this young women with no direction in my life, unhappy, defensive and negative, dressing in schlumpy clothes all the time.
I see what I see in my mind and keep reaching for it. This is definitly a journey for me in more ways than one.There is no turning back.No stopping.Just moving foward.I gotta start taking care of me and the body that supports me. If not I will only fall apart...

What a beautiful post you wrote! I can say I'm with you in it, because I want to lose weight, but I want first to be happy! I think that most of time we want to lose weight only to please other people. The real success will come when we do it for US.

I wish you to succeed in your journey, but like Bikipatra said, I'm sure you're already all what you wrote. I feel you so sensible and so coherent (well I'm starting to lack vocabulary sorry ) ! Start each days by saying to you that you're beautiful and you feel good with yourself and as your weight will decrease, you'll become another woman

Congrat and continue being the one you are

Thanks for your kind words Rick...

This journey is like turbulence...the more bumps in the road,the more memorable it is in surviving the ride. (just made that, hope it makes sense)
Meaning I dont expect anything in this to be easy. I will have ups and downs and laughter and tears...but its worth standing on that scale and looking at that mirror when I am there and seeing what I fought tooth and nail for: ME

Good luck in your journey.Glad you are on board here with us...

Rick06PV wrote:you'll become another woman

Something like.... I am half the size but twice the woman ! hee hee. Sorry, I couldn't resist .

Now, Debra. I just wanted to congratulate you on your beautiful success thus far and for all of the care and consideration you are putting into what you are doing ! That is going to continue serving you *so* well and it will just bloom as you keep marching forward.

Cheers to you,
Karli

Well youre right I will be half a woman...depending on what scale's weight I choose to use...LOL

Thanks Karli. I hope to bloom as well as you are.

Taangrl21 wrote:Thanks for your kind words Rick...

This journey is like turbulence...the more bumps in the road,the more memorable it is in surviving the ride. (just made that, hope it makes sense)
Meaning I dont expect anything in this to be easy.

Wow it make a lot of sence to me You're right, if the ride is bumpy and hard, we'll be a lot happier to have make it Thanks for your good words.

By the way, you were asking yourself what you could do to celebrate your success at Valentine day. What I will personally do when I'll reach my first goal (weighting less than 200, it means a lot for me) is to shop for some smaller clothes. No needs to spend 200$, just a few clothes you wouldn't have buy before your diet. IMHO, it's a good way to motivate ourselves to continue our diet and to reach our ultimate goal

So I got home and decided to cook dinner for my mom dad and gram(whom I live with). I made my yummy chicken parm. I decided to try a recipe from this site for my chicken and then tried the Birds Eye Brand microwave steam in a bag cauliflower w/garlic.Chicken was delish cauliflower was AWFUL! So I microwaved some brocolli I had leftovers of the other night instead. I was compliant but became a little irritable to see everyone enjoying my meal that I cooked and cant have(for GOOD reasons of course):chicken parm with sauce and pasta and garlic rolls...
My gram tuned and asked me somet question and all I heard was the words "diet food" and I snipped at her...she didnt deserve it so a few minutes later I apologized and explained that it is hard looking at that meal and not having it.But then I said out loud, "would I rather be fat or eat healthy and fit in nice clothes?". They all told me they were proud of me. Which was nice.Even though they are my family and I know they love me unconditionally,I still need that postive reinforcement at times.Who doesnt?

So here I am holding myself accountable for my first "lettin' it get to me moment". I wasnt tempted at all to eat anything, just frustrated.Plus I am tired which doesnt help. I have already wasted many good years on eating and dont want that to be the focus of my life. I want happiness to be the focus...and I am definitly on my way there.

When I make my husband chicken parm I make it for myself too.

I only use 4 oz of chicken. I crumble up soy crisps to use as breading, then use Pam instead of egg to make it stick. Fry it in Pam until cooked on both sides. Then I put fresh chopped tomatoes, garlic and onions on top. I also add 1 oz of low fat mozzarella on top and bake until the cheese is melted.

YUMMY- and it tastes like real chicken parm!

Thanks beth...that sounds really yum. I will definitly be trying that soon.

WEEK 3- DAY 2

Well this morning I weighed in 2-3lbs lighter...I had just woken up so yeah my eyes werent quite as focused plus I was standing there in the buff on the scale in the bathroom...freezing. So today is hump day and I am just ready for this week to be over.I am always bored at work, I am a receptionist/operator, but whenver my friend isnt here I am bored beyond belief. So I just read and surf the net...
Anywhoo...today is as follows:

630-shake
930-bar
1230-soup
330-oatmeal
630-l&g
930-pudding

Just thinking about my Valentine's Day goal and realize if for some **magic** reason I lose 20lbs beforehand I will up the goal a smidgen more..I will still celebrate that 20lb victory of course...I dont know...I guess I will figure it out when the time comes.Hope everyone is having a great morning so far...